I've ruined my life

Thanks Sun and Zara.

I have just re-read all my posts and can honestly say that I find it hard to believe the place I have got to in my mind. (I think being a long term user of ADs helps to stabilise things)

I know there will be a lot more sad days to come, but I can now look back on today and think, 'hell, if I can do that, I can do ANYTHING!!'

I've actually started to post in other threads as well, not particulary to give advice, but just to let people know they are not alone and to maybe hear things from the 'other side of the fence'

Lsot1 wrote:

She said that she had even thought that maybe, just maybe, in the future, if our house gets taken away, I could move into her new house with her. That's a long way down the road though. To me, that was like someone had just told me I had won the lottery. Now I know I have to be a realist and it may never turn out that way, but where there's a will, there's a way.

Lsot. Dont get false hopes up. This will probably never happen. What people tend to do is give someone false hopes because they feel sorry for them. I know its cruel and we kick ourselves for doing it at the time. But we are all human.

In 6 months - 2 years you wont want this anyway. You will be with someone new and this will all be a distant if not painful memory. C

Wow Marshmallow, a hard reality check eh?

I can console myself in the fact that everyone is different and no-one knows what will happen, how they will feel or what they will do.

It aint false hope, it's just something to help me get through this particular time. I know I may change my views, but I do hear a little 'resentment' in your post.

Stay focused Lsot, none of us know what the future holds. We can sometimes steer it in the right way if we want to though.
Keep going............ you know you can.
Zara

Zara

I relate to Marshmallows post. I was given false hopes. For ages she placated me saying she was coming back. Called me her best friend, kept coming round. ETC ETC. Drove me into depression. At a time I should have been rebuilding she was saying/ doing by her actions that I still had a chance. A chance that is if I 'behaved muself'' Not really. All she was doing was turning her guilty conscience on me So build yourself up. If she comes back she will if you are strong. If she doesn't you will also be stronger. Its win win for you. So keep moving in the direction you are moving. Best of luck either way.

Thanks Polar. I understand more now. Marsh seems genuine caring person but sometimes the truth hurts so you hide from it. I am not quite ready to fully accept that yet, in time I will.

I've had a crying session, I knew I would. It was wneh I had to dismantle one of our sofas for my sons to take over to her place. It was like physically dismantling my marriage and that sucked, hard.

I took a lot of deep breaths though and got over it.

Thanks for all your help people. It's nice to have you with me