I've ruined my life

LOL...

Thanks Pep!

You never know!

Well everyone who has followed this story of mine will know that I wrote a couple of poems when I was first on my own. Now, 6 months down the line, I have written another, again straight from the heart. I trust it will give some of you hope that things DO get better....

Moving On..

There is a time in your life
When you are back on your own
Things that were hiding
Are allowed to be shown

The joy of the sun
The cool of the rain
How wonderful it is
To be happy again

The way that you were
For so many years
You kept going on
Despite all your fears

The light is here now
Filling all of the dark
There is so much to see
The swan and the lark

The world is my oyster
I have time to roam
I can set my bags down
And call anywhere home

The journey is fun
Destination not set
Some day I will stop
But not quite just yet!



Take Care People

Keep it up Lsott. I, not posting so much at moment. Think we are moving on and gaining momentum dont you !! Take care Polar

Well back on page 31 of this thread, I posted about Ws' BFF getting involved with my kids.....Seems like my demands were somewhat ignored.

I have to vent a little on here, if you've read my story, you will know all about the toxic BFF that my W has become a clone of.

S21 and S23 were talking last night and I found out that BFF had been giving S21 a hard time about his life and attitude the other day, S21 told BFF where to go, good for him, but then W junped in a had a go at S21 for disrespecting BFF. This is after I have told W in NO uncertain terms that BFF should NEVER get involved with me OR my family again or there would be trouble.

Well I just hope I NEVER see her, because if I do, I will have a lot of very nasty things to say. I am absolutely livid that she feels she can make comments to MY children. I've never hated anyone in my life, and never wished ill on anyone either, but I sincerely wish this pathetic excuse for a human being, the worst luck ever for the remainder of her miserable existance.

Another thing S21 told me, was that when he walked into W's house last night, it was like looking at 2 identical twins sitting at opposite sides of a table.

I've told W many times how things were going and that she was losing her own identity. Well it's truly gone now. One thing that W would never. ever do, is to let anyone else criticise her children. Now she is not only allowing it, but attacking them for standing up for themselves. S23 said to me today, that both him and his brother are starting to resent their mother. They know she left me, but have so far, felt that they were still important to her. It's so sad to see that they are feeling pushed away and isolated.

The bottom of W's world is starting to crack and break up, it will soon fall out and I am grateful that I am not there to see it.

I still want to call her and tell her again that there is no way that toxic 'thing' should be even in the same room as mu kids, let alone talk to them. I said that I wouldn't though and I won't. Out of respect for my 2 boys more than anything.

I really hoped that I would never feel anger like this towards W.

Hi again Lsott. Its going to happen !!!
When my X left I said 'I hate what you are doing to yourself'' Her reply was that it had nothing to do with me. Selfish to the extreme she has continued to destroy her life and I do gain a certain amount of satisfaction (smack on my hand) as she and her family seem to be going downhill bigtime. Only prob is that as she goes down and I (and you recover) I am now accused of poisoning my daughter against her. No she did that herself and her actions continue to batter my daughter emotionally and the blame always falls on me. Funny how green fields tend to turn brown !!! Browner the better as far as Im concerned !!! Karma works without any action from me whatsoever !!! So Lsott, stand back and watch with interest as the wrongdoer learns a very hard lesson. Not posting much these days as building me up !!! Take care Polar

Yep, Same patterns repeating.

I'll go with the browner the better as well!!

Cheers mate

Yep Lsott...As I said in the beginning !!!! Same patterns repeating. Funny how your story runs parallel with mine in so many ways. (must be others as well on here) Funny how time passes so quickly to. A good expression I have learnt over the period is '' I am here now because here is where I am meant to be at this moment in time'' So when you ask what the F*** am I doing here...its where you are meant to be at that precise moment.
Gives you some understanding as to why you are in a place/position etc. at that moment. Only trouble is I cant buy the paperback to see where it will lead to in the future !!
Im all for the muddy fields. Those who have something to hide will lie, cheat and wriggle knowing that the real story will eventually come out in the end and when they least expect it. Once a liar, always a liar, once a cheater, always a cheater. And the best revenge is to let them have the other half as they will be saddled with the problems and the real story will always pop out...when they least expect it !!! Oh Im just waiting !!! Take care Polar