Give me a reason to continue

hi carrie, all I can say is that I can empathise with you. Like you I didn't know what to do,what to think,worried about coping financially.I waited too long before I decided on my future and at that point I almost had no future.I got to a place in my life that I didn't want to be any more.
Luckily I found wikki that night.
So all I can say is don't leave it too long before addressing the issues in your marriage.try everything you want to try if you truly believe there is a chance of reviving/saving your marriage but you'll also have to come to terms with the fact that you both need to work at it as you alone cannot save your marriage, he has to want to save it too.
Don't let too many years pass you by, waiting, hoping things will get better if you know in your heart that they won't.That is not fair on you as we all deserve some happiness and contentment in our lives.
Too many years of being treated contemptuously, ignored, made to feel insignificant and unloved destroys what and who you are.
Don't let it drag on and get as bad as I did.I wish you well in whatever you choose to do.it's a tough decision.

Oh Dear! What can I say? I really think you already know what to do. If you feel that miserable and I think the title "give me a reason to go continue" may be a hint that you are little bit sad, you need to get out now. Tell your husband that you want a divorce and go and see a solicitor for advice. You know at the very least a letter from a solicitor may actually give him the kick up the arse he needs to sort out his selfish behavour. Honestly though, do you really think he loves you if he treats you this way? Don't you think you are worth more. His behavour has destroyed your self confidence and you need to get strong again. Best of luck.