i tried to kill myself yesterday

((((Smurfy)))),

You are having a tough time of it at the moment... you have tried something very silly but please learn from it...

It's hard to find positives in your life when you feel so low but dig deep. Looking at your profile you are obviously a pet lover and your cats, kittens and dog all look gorgeous. You are a mother to them and they need all your love and attention.

My ex-wife attempted the same but it was definitely a cry for help as she rang and told me she had done it. She was so full of lies I only half believed her but I rang her mother and told her she was feeling down. Luckily she went round to check on her. Was not nice for my kids to see their mum stretchered out in front of their eyes... but even an evil twisted person like her has now found happiness again as she has remarried and moved to bulgaria to start a new life.

Things will get better....they always do...

Use family, friends and Wiki community when feeling low as you are not in this alone but as others have said there are professionals like your GP who will help you without judging you....don't let your pride or embarrassment stand in the way of getting help...

Mike
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Hey you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Just finished bawling c/o the guys in chat and Joan Baez.

I was in this morning when u came into the chat room.

((((((((((((((Smurfy)))))))))))))))

I know why you did it hun cos I tried too, but failed - thank God. My hubby had stopped believing in me. He didn't care when I was telling him. He just said make it look like an accident. I was unconscious for 10 hours and my family were wailing on the floors of the hospital.

I can't write much more cos I hurt them so much. Obviously, it cost me my marriage, oh, and my job.

But you are dealt your number at birth smurfy. He sent you back because it isnt your time yet hun. You have so much to live for.

I wish my family had had more counselling so I beg you to get all the help you can to get better.

You are one special lady and I can think of many, many peeps who care very deeply for you.

We can get through this together sweetheart.

Please message me if ever want to chat. I'm holding your hand every step of the way

Take care Smurfy cos you are very much needed xxxxxx

((((((((smurfy)))))))))))
Not much else i can add to all the above post but just wanted you to know I had read it and to offer all support I can. xxx

Smurfette,

You ask why you did it. You did it because you knew no other way in desperation to cry for help. Your cry has been heard, please accept that help.

You say you have convinced the psychiatrist that you are not at risk, have you convinced yourself Smurfette? Be open, honest and accept the help please.

Being scared is good, do not take it as an awful sensation - it means you are past the worst.

((((((((((Smurfette))))))))))

YA

smurfy1973 wrote:

he witnessed the violence my husband perpertrated against me.

My husband contacted me this morning, telling me that he loves me and wants to work it out. I love him but I don't know whether it is another game.

Hi Smurfy;
You've identified that your husband is a violent abuser; and question if his new offer of love is just a game.

Unless he has dealt with his own issues of Anger and Control; I imagine the patterns will only repeat; and get worse. This 'Push/Pull' game of controlling men (pushing you away with anger, then pulling you back with promises) is a condition commonly experienced by victims of domestic abuse; and widely recognised by professionals dealing with their victims.

A book I'm reading 'The Journey from Abandonment to Healing' looks at different stages of recovery. Under the section dealing with Withdrawal it says:

Love withdrawal is just like heroin withdrawal, involving intense craving and agitation for the love you are missing. You ache, throb and yearn for your loved one to return.

You need to address the emptiness; and not assume that it is a void only he can fill. For now, you need to concentrate on your own well-being, and when you're stronger you can suggest your ex attends counselling; with a VIEW to perhaps having a future together.

Your cry for help yesterday was your way of saying that you don't want to die, even though you may feel that there's little point of living (without him).

Many Wiki posters wished they had a Magic Wand; and are still in love with the POTENTIAL of what our ex's COULD be; rather than the people they really are. (Often cruel, abusive, and controlling).

Get support in dealing with your issues first, then find the strength to deal with the other issues when you're stronger.

Good luck,

Sera
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Life sucks at times but it does get better .....it really does..... please get some help and talk to a professional who knows exactly how you feel... people on here dont know how you are feeling but there are people who do.....use them.... talk with them... please heed this advice....life is great and too precious to waste.....

Hi Smurfy
I don't know much about you but I do know there's a great new life for you out there but you need to want to find it. You want people to know how much your hurting, but you've also got to be honest with professionals and take the help your offered
Please remember it will get better you've just got to hang on in there.
((((((((( smurf)))))))))))).