Really feel like ending it all

Linda,
These are your feelings, you feel the way you do, and dont need to apologise or justify how you feel, you have expressed your feelings as a cry for help.

Keep expressing, keep talking

It does get better in time isnt a cliche it really does get better

starry

Thank you all so much

I don't want to be weak - I just feel so low and I can't take my children's pain any longer - it is so hard - I cannot believe their own father could cause them so much pain and pretend to care about them

Sorry

Linda

I am really sorry if I offended you Amanda - I know you have been through the most horrendous time of late. It is just the most unbearable pain when you see your children hurting and there is nothing you can do to make it better, I truly understand that my stbx's daughter deserves to have him at her wedding but that does not stop the pain I feel when my eleven year old little boy is crying in front of a counsellor asking why his Dad hasn't come to see him like he promised. It was nevery about my feelings but the pain of my child's. I am sorry if I offended you so much.

Linda

Also feeling really low as my son get his GCSE results tomorrow and he said to me earlier 'Dad won't even remember will he?'. So painful when this man has been the shining light in my sons life for 16 years supporting him through school, football, girlfriend trouble etc. etc. and now doesn't seem to give a stuff about any of it - wish I could take my son's pain away.

Thank you all for caring

Linda

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Hi Linda. You are doing something for your sons hurt. Your there for him and you love him dearly. You can only do your bit you can't do your ex's bit. The stronger you are the stronger your son will be. I can't start to image what it's like for your son, but having a Mum that cares this much is great for him and will help him no get over the hurt of broken promises.

Hang in there, it will all be wotrh it.

Linda just off to bed but wanted to give you big hug 1st before i go, you will get there hon xxx

linda hope you are feeling better,
please do not take this the wrong way,
as a parent I think it is right that he should attend his daughter's wedding ,it is not everyday that she gets married and if she is lucky hopefully it is just that once.Most probably he can visit your son or arrange for your son to visit him soon.
What would have been your feelings if she was your daughter too??I am sure you would have like him to be there.Both are his children !!!
It is never easy for children and it sounds like your son has taken it badly ,only thing you can do is be there for him without letting him see any bitterness you might have for his dad.
BIg HUGS for both you.