Seeing ex 2nite 4 the 1st time in over a mth

well as some of you know ive had a rough couple of days...my grandmother is critically ill....

ive had to tell my ex - i know some of you said dont - but its got to the stage where i have to...he did know her for 15 years.....and whatever anyone says, including me I guess he does have a right to know ?? i still question his right......

so he's coming tonight - to offer support - do i want to see him - yes i do - whatever has happened i cant stop the love i feel for him...... am i in love with him ?? no i dont think so anymore...but as ive said in the past he was my best friend, my soul mate.....i know all thats gone now but maybe just maybe for a couple of hours he can be the friend i used to have..

i am nervous about seeing him, i dont want to discuss financials or us....even though talking about why he did what he did would be good but now is not the right time..

i dont know why ive posted this i guess i just needed to write....

so what am i doing now ??? cleaning my home to make sure he knows i can cope with the house, to look after it.....to make it look loved and lived in.....

and as for me, yes i will be looking fab, why ?? for me thats why......

Daisy
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Hi Daisy
You are thinking of yourself at the moment which is good. Whether you live to regret it is another thing but for now, you are doing what you feel is right for you. Whatever the outcome, you will deal with it.
Sending you lots of hugs (((((Daisy)))))))

You go girl...........show him wot he's missing

Good luck tonight and I wish your grandmother all the best.

Take care

Phoenix

good luck daisy,

just dont get your hopes up - and keep your dignity - remember he is the bad one in this - not you!!!!

I'll be thinking of you, same as phoenix, wish your grandmother all the best. Support is ok to take from your ex, you can still care for an ex, believe me, but it's not in the same category as love. take care of yourself Daisy.
Jade
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Hope it went well tonight and you got the support you needed from him.
Hope it hasn't put you back stilling him as you seem to be doing well

hope grandmother is well.

take care of yourself and your heart
Carrie x