Bad weekend!

HRH well that''s spoilt the illusion we were all under the impression that you did wear your underpants on top of your leotard

Somedays we do then others well we just meltdown as well .
I get the meltdowns . Had or still having a blip at the moment . My children ran the Manchester Marathon I was there to cheer them on I went to the sixteen mile marker the twenty three mile marker and the end . The ex did not bother going . I had a good time with the me however , it also triggered a lot of sadness in me re us not being a complete family anymore . I also felt sad for them that their mother was not there.

So we are going to have meltdowns .
Then pick ourselves up . Dust ourselves down and then find a telephone box to put our red underpants on . We go face the world . Although inside is weeping and grieving the loss of the old . We are making way for the new.

So Patsy , we are in the same boat as others on this roller coaster .
Yep , I want off it as well . Had enough of it now to be honest . Wanna get off it , walk away and never look back .

All will be well , and all manner of things shall be well .

D

Thanks for all the advice....and for making me smile HRH.

I''m still on a downer. I feel so guilty. I''ve felt anxious and churned up all day.

I take on board that maybe it was too soon to expect to move on, but I really wanted to try....and it kind of felt right for a while.

Maybe more counselling is the best solution. I''ve clearly got issues still to deal with, although I thought i was doing ok for a while.

I sent a txt last night to the new guy just to explain why i''d been so quiet - that i was having a ''wobble'' and feeling unsettled etc and that I know I''m a nightmare and if I were him I''d run a mile!!!

He replied ''I''m going nowhere... I care too much about you...you''re amazing...you''re a keeper!''

Feel 10 times worse now. He''s a lovely person, and he was my friend and now I think I''m about to blow our friendship and our ''romance'' and I feel like a complete b**ch.

He''s done nothing wrong. He''s been perfect boyfriend material and I''ve given him all the vibes that I felt the same way, because I DID feel something for him until this weekend and now I want to just run away and live in a hut on my own and never have to deal with anything emotional ever again.

That sounds so dramatic. Maybe I need to take a big fat chill pill, but it''s just the way I feel right now.

hI Patsy

All I would say is go with your gut because it''s always right.

How many of us now talk about all the red flags that we chose to ignore and look at us now.

I hope you feel better soon

LG xXx