staying strong

i know, i'll need to be careful here, i am going to make an appointment tomorrow with a lawyer, wont give them my business straight away - they see you as money as soon as you walk through the front door so will tread carefully.

I shouldnt have gone straight into debate with her today i should have played it cool to start with and asked a few questions about her movements then used this information as ammunition as she did backtrack on the car and the Julie2 person.

Her mobile is switched off now so cant get through, she has the kids and they have no pyjamas or anything else for tonight so i am hoping they will have to come home tonight. i need to discuss how we tell the kids and our separation.

God this is hard, too hard at times.

i told her today that i had thought of ending it all, and she turned and said why dont you, it would mae her life a lot easier. How can she be so cruel????

All I can say is that the strength of your own mind will carry you through.

DO NOT beat yourself up about anything.

Having kids makes things worse in my opinion. Focus on them. Do all you can to keep things smooth and unconfrontational.

Times will be hard, but being as strong as you can, positive and realistic will carry you through.

I and the rest of all the regulars here will help to share the burden, purely by talking things through with each other.

Good luck, cin up and keep in touch my friend.